Chloe is back to blog again. I never though of blogging until someone suggested it to me. He said if i have alot of stuff to tell him, i should write in a blog. I was thinking indeed this is the only communication tool we have, so i decided its time for me to do so.
I told myself whenever i have the chance i will log in here to tell everyone my fairytale story. Chloe is blessed with a marvellous family and fabulous friends, she treaure every single minutes seconds in her life.
Oh my gosh, i am crying now. I was tearing to my beloved buddy, Huiying. I told her i am exhausted & lonely, everytime i saw her in msn i feel like crying. My mum & Huiying is my pillar of strength. I told Huiying next time if we die, our coffin will be next to each other. Dunno why, I thank her for alway been there for me, I thank her for never rejecting my hug. Tears just flow down my rosy cheeks. Oh gosh, tears machines generating full power...
Now its time to summarise my recent exciting real life story. Firstly, i wanna talk about my cute little nephew, Jayden. I went to celebrate my granny's birthday, i saw my few months old Jayden, he's so adorable. He sat on my lap comfortably, his head laying on my fleshy breast watching the tv, can see he damn shiok. I saw my mum playing with my nephew, both of them are enjoying themselves. I managed to take some photo with him. Suddenly, i feel like being a mothee, a urge of being a loving & beautiful mother. Don't know why this few days everything i see, hear or get attracted are about babies. Just make me feel like being a mother. I am sure if i become a mummy i will be as cute and lovely as before.
Recently Chloe turned to a crybaby. I have been crying and crying, its the only way to relieve my stressed. I feel so exhausted with work and my life. I feel so lost & lonely, i don't know why am i working so hard for. My health is deteriorating, my stomach starts to reject food when i take too much. Its okie whatever it is with my pillar of strength Chloe fear nothing.
Latest Lesson Chloe learnt - Yesterday i was foolish, thinking of giving up being independent relying on a guy, i was planning to search for love, a relationship. A shoulder to lie on, a hug i yearn for, a kiss i earn from. After hearing some meaning words from this particular person i woke up, i learn that you can never look or search for love, when times come it will appear. I really appreciate the meaningful words the person have provided me, treasure the person.
Today, i stand tough on my feet and start all over again, regain my confident to start a fresh new day.
No matter how sad or tough it is for me, I thanked God for bringing me to this incredible exciting world...
